لو جيت و شلت ايديك، الصورة تتفركش.

“كل الحاجات حواليك...

ف الكادر سانده عليك....

لو جيت وشلْت اديك....

الصورة تتفركش ….

ضلك على الحيطه ….

كان خافي عنها النور ….

وطلّعها بتنغمش...

كفك على السفره...

من غيره كان إزاي...

مفرشها يتكرمش ؟..

بصمة صباع إيدك...

لسّاها ع الشبابيك...

ميت ألف تفصيله...

ملهاش وجود غير بيك..

وإنتا عليك تختار...

حتبدّي مين على مين ؟..

وتبدّي إيه على إيه ؟..

الجاي والجايين ؟

وللا اللي خدت عليه ؟

أصل الحياه للعلم..

مفهاش حاجات ببلاش..

وعشان ماتصبح فيلم...

وأصلا عشان تتعاش..

كادر الحياه المشحون...

فرح والم وشجون..

لازم يكون
بيلف....

لازم يكون….
بيدور..


يتقل عليك ويخف..

ويعشّمك بالنور..

ف نهاية المشوار..."

Serenity :)

I must note the fact that my heart is simply pounding away too much serenity that can't but drench my cells in this very tranquil medium...
AlhmduleAllah...
اللهم أدمها من نعمة و احفظها من الزوال.

I Wonder

Sometimes I can't help wondering how lovely it must be being in paradise.

I mean for real, imagine a place the sole reason for its existence is to please you. A place studded with all that which satisfies one's body and soul. Unimaginable much? Yeah. This is what makes heaven even more heavenly. It's the fact that no matter how much effort you put into imagining, you just won't be anywhere close to the real thing. This little thought makes my insides swell with contentment for inshaAllah ,one day, I pray paradise will be my eternal residence.

I Wish I Had Known

I wish I had known how liberating it was, being a little child.
No worries, no cries.
No aspirations, no hopes put high.
People? I have my own world, I don't need them anyway.
Selfishness won't let me feel others pains, but isn't it best to merely feel your own?
I wish I had known...
I would have seized every second.
Built up castles in the air and smoked them away.
Played under the rain, praying that forever it rains.
Found out a way to remain forever underage.
I wish I had known before I got here...

Lessons Along the Way

This little thing has multiple congenital anomalies. TGA, kidney and other visceral anomalies.
He's arrested three times in a row. The chief resident walks in, "don't resuscitate again if he goes into another arrest", she snaps.
A few minutes later and he's turning blue with both his breath and heart rate dropping down in a blur.
The little baby dies. A few of those attending try to CPR him, but to no avail
His mum walks in, as if she's felt it coming:
"Ahmed, these are his ECG results, when is gonna leave with me, doctor?" She pushes his investigation papers to me b
"Umm, Ahmed? Well..."
I gesture to another doctor to come over.
"Look here, he came to us with a failing heart, my dear. We did all we could have done" she says casting her eyes down in an attempt of commiseration.

Now the mother's reaction struck me speechless. She smiles and mutters:

"انا لله و انا اليه راجعون،
ربنا هو اللي ادهولي و انا اكيد مش ارحم به منه"

""We all belong to God, and to Him we shall return,
It's God who granted me this, and I'm certainly not more Merciful than Him."

Despite the feeling of great loss that echoed through her entire body, she still held on to God. Seeing this most profound calamity of losing her infant nothing but another test of this life.

I'm speechless. In fact I'm heading home today cutting my ER stay short because of what I've just grasped. A lesson that shall always be in my little backpack as I go through life: Faith eases it all.

I'm 21 Already

I'm 21 already and I still haven't written my first book,
Given my first Tedx talk,
Gone for my first bungee jump,
Drove my first Jaguar,
Had my first solo surgery,
Won some international badminton medal,
Swum across the Mediterranean,
Made a groundbreaking scientific discovery,
Granted parents tickets to an around-the-world journey,


I'm 21 already and I still haven't taught my first child how to pray,
Prayed in the Aqsa,
Helped someone see their way into Islam,
Memorized the Quran
Studied the Sunnah thoroughly.


I might have not gotten farther than the first few chapters in my book
I might have not tried any but an awesome turbo-driven VW
I might have only helped out on surgeries,
Won some stupid 8th grade badminton matches,
Swum 3 km in a row,
Discovered how fast food debris rot when I don't do the dishes one week in a row,
Driven parents only to a few of their rendezvous,
Taught my little sister to pray Qiyyam,
Prayed in Meccah,
Introduced a few atheists to Islam,
Memorized few chapters of the Quran,
Read few Sunnah books.


When I was complaisant and little, I had lots of ambitions.
Perhaps,chronologically, I'm a little behind on my schedule of achievements but what soothes my soul is deep faith that one day, inshaAllah, my little dreams will blossom into beautiful realities.
Let that day be soon or late. I'm keeping my faith strong and steady.