Safely Set Ashore

It's late afternoon again.
This time I'm walking on the Gama'a bridge. It's a bit sunny but an invigorating breeze sets the weather just right.
My earphones are plugged in, as usual. I'm listening to this Nasheed, a most serene one, full to the brim of solemn prayers, ones that I have listened to repetitively, repeated too often and cried out in my prostrations.
I turn to look at the Nile. Soothing.
So silent...marching in absolute solitude, purposefully.
I wondered how long has it been since I felt this quiet? So quiet, almost Nile-like, not bothering to swear at the sun rays vaporizing away its water, nor to eye those trashing their empty food wrappers at it...it's been a long while indeed.
I breathe in so deeply, feeling how minute I am in this vast universe. So very negligible, yet out of all those creatures out there, I've been honored by being a Muslim. Out of all the pranksters, I've been destined to join a dead-serious college. Out of all the medstudents, I've been made to marvel on His creation, grasping the beauty in each living being, and appreciating the gift of life.
Flashes of life passed by as I crossed to the opposite side of the road. Five years have slipped by since I came to my own homeland, feeling outcast and forlorn. I kept reminiscing on eclectic memories, my first body to dissect, my first scrubbing into a surgery, my first mattress suture, my first attending normal labor, my very first touching a cyanotic preterm baby, trying to stimulate its breathing, my first time parting from a bestfriend, gosh memories hit me so hard I felt dizzy but SubhanAllah is this how it shall be like my first-and certainly last-time dying?
Shall my entire life be solidified into slides passing by in a blur? Will I be made proud of those little scenes? Will I bite my fingertips off in vain, in shame? Will I have something meaningful and worthy to offer My Lord?
I pray the few breaths I have left on this earth will be spent in pleasing Allah Subhana Wa Ta'laa, I pray that my ship safely sets ashore.